there gone my happiness.

haiz. not official yet. but i think i need a miracle to change the fact that i'm gonna lose my happiness. call me lebay or exaggerating or anything. but i just feel so.

it seems so 'happily ever after' to me. until today.

some days ago, this thought came across my mind, that i didn't have such enough-to-be-called-pain things happening in my mind right now. everything seems so perfect (except the upcoming gpa, but i think i'm mentally ready so this isn't taken into account). and i realized that this was too good to be true. and yes, it was. that's why it didn't happen for real. i must stop dreaming. i must get rid of the 'happily ever after' tales for once, or... forever.