It's almost 2am in the morning

and i'm still on :)

in this little room...i want to add the word "sweet" but it just doesn't feel right. because it's still messy! yeah i still have one bag to be unpacked and i don't "have time" to do that. well, just call me lazy, that would be much simpler.

fyi, i got a single room! should it be a "yay" or not? no roomie... no one to talk to.. but since i'm an introvert, it's not really a big problem. yeah, i really like my room :)

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sometimes u may not know what's or who's waiting for u, but as long as u have the faith to carry on, u should be okay doing things u do.

I...

- am thankful that I was given a chance to learn that I need to have faith in myself, even though we're talking about surrendering. It doesn't mean you don't do anything and just wait anything to happen, you have to put faith in yourself first.

- hate when people bothering my business which is actually not really an issue for myself. Why do you have to bother yourself about me? because I just feel comfortable about what I'm doing.

- am becoming more and more happy with myself. It's not because of success or achievements. It's because of the heart is peaceful in the very first place.

- know I don't belong there, I didn't enjoy it. It's okay, at least I'm not pretending being somebody I'm not.

- don't care if people calling me an anti-social because we have a different perspective about its definition. In my own definition, I'm not one, so I just don't care.

How I'm Surviving

long time no see!

I'm still alive. Yeah!

So much things happened since the last time I wrote.

-I embarrassed myself in front of public.

-I realized some things were not meant for me.

-I know that miracle does exist.

-I don't know how to describe my feelings towards good things which happened unexpectedly. Some were too good to be true. That's why I call them miracles.

-I'm still questioning about what I wanna do in life. Every time I see my lecture notes and tutorials, I'm not sure if that's exactly what I wanna do. I do have some thing in mind but I still need a little bit faith.

-I'm more becoming melancholic and phlegmatic. And I feel comfortable with it.

-I learn more and more about surrendering.

I don't hope for any good news coming tonight. I just hope that it is the best for all.

I really mean every word I wrote here.