Do you love me?

*taken from today's reflection (www.wau.org)*

Do you love me? (John 21:15)

Jesus’ questioning of Peter in such a direct way was not intended to make Peter feel guilty. And neither was it an ego trip for the Lord. Jesus didn’t need Peter’s love to feel better about himself. He already knew—better than Peter himself—how much Peter loved him. Rather, Jesus wanted Peter to reach deep within himself and see how much love for the Lord was actually there.

Jesus questioned Peter at a pivotal moment to show that Peter’s love for him was greater than any opposing power that might try to keep him bound in the memory of his failures. He wanted Peter to see that while he would make mistakes, his love for Jesus could still cover a multitude of human failings. This was probably one of the most encouraging interrogations anyone could experience! True, Jesus’ questions must have disturbed Peter. But in the end, they actually restored his faith in himself as a child of God and as a chosen apostle. They helped Peter understand that even in spite of his imperfections, he could still serve Jesus fully.

Today, Jesus asks each of us, “Do you love me?” even though he already knows the answer. We should welcome this kind of questioning. He doesn’t doubt us. He only wants to burn away any unbelief in us with the fire of his love—a love that will create an even deeper love for him in our hearts.

Today at Mass, welcome Jesus into your heart so that he can expand your capacity to love. Yes, you will make mistakes; no one is sinless. But know that as you declare your love to Jesus, he will strengthen you and empower you to take up the work he has called you to. Then your love for him will become the visible proof that his kingdom really has come to earth.

“Jesus, you know how much I love you. Continue refining me with the fire of your love so that I may love you more and show my love to you and my neighbors.”

I heard someone crying, "I'm scared!"

Yes. In the reading room. While I was supposed to study..

I dunno what happened to her, but all that I can conclude is that she was very scared of failing one (or more) of her exams, which is only (or still?) one week ahead. I dunno whether she had tried her best but still couldn't answer past year paper questions, or she had been slacking during the whole semester and just realized that the doomsday is coming! From the way she cried, I assume it's the first case.

*sigh*

It made me think what "sins" has the school or the teacher committed which causes their own students to suffer. Or is it the education system itself. Or peer pressure.

IDEALLY, school is supposed to be the "perfect place" where students can learn new things, get new knowledge. The students are supposed to be happy to study. Why? Simply, because their main duty as a student is to study! Study. Study hard. Study harder. Study. Study. Study. But, in REALITY, most of the students (at least most that I know) spend time complaining about how lazy they are, how tired, so saturated.

*sigh*

I wonder if studying is as exciting as watching movies, life would be so much easier. Can we create that IDEAL world of studying? Where students love to read the textbooks as seriously as reading Harry Potter, or Doraemon.

Exams are coming. Libraries, canteens, benches, they are full of a group of survivors. And somehow, I found a very funny yet ironic fact about exam period. When the term just starts, we (some, not all) find it very hard to even take a look at the tutorial questions, but when exams are already coming, it is even harder to find a place (even just) to study! Get what I mean? Even to find a place to place your thick lecture notes, you have to try harder these days. Even some extra spaces are provided to satisfy the needy.

And now, as my msn pm says "I think I have reached my most saturation point of studying in my life (s0 far...)" And yes, I really mean it. I'm just tired of studying. Maybe I'm just tired of the WAY of studying.

nice one :)

On this day, God wants you to know...

... that the way you know you have found the right one is the inexpressible comfort of feeling safe with the person. Having neither to weigh thoughts nor measure words, but pouring them all right out, just as they are, chaff and grain together; certain that a faithful hand will take and sift them, keep what is worth keeping, and then with the breath of kindness blow the rest away. - a quote by Dinah Craik

the truth is not cruel. it is true.

hola! duh, i planned to sleep since 1 hour ago but still ended up blogging =.=.

well, okay. today i had just heard someone said something about my natural personality. we are not close or anything, actually, but i'm glad he said that.

it's about knowing your capability of doing something. u might have been imagined and wondered if you can do this and that, be like this and that, or anything which sounds cool to be. the point is, in spite of all the privileges it offers, is it suitable for you? have you considered about your natural behaviour whether it will support you doing your business? the words may seem so nice. the place may seem so promising. but, sometimes the truth is just true, you know. the truth that u can't hide or change. it's just you.

knowing and getting to know yourself better is what is more important. because by doing so, u can choose what u wanna be, to contribute for others better.

Lifetime Wishes

My thought recently wanders around the realm of blurry future. I do not know what I am going to be, but I know.. I am becoming somebody.. The future of mine may be a little bit hazy, but at the moment I crave so many little sweet things for my future. I sketch my plan in a plain white canvass, using the sweet colours of life. Little sweet things that may be so precious. Things are not everlasting, but I have my own lifetime wishes. It's not like wishes upon a falling star. I will know if it is right at the right time. I just need to listen and pray.