I am contented.

How long since the last time I wrote here? 3 months. And how long since the last time I really did update something? A long time ago.

Suddenly, I feel the urge to write again. Well, not that 'suddenly". It's because I have been thinking what actually am I really good at? Can I do it for a living, someday? I come to an answer telling me that I want to be a painter and a writer. It's true that I'll have my degree as an engineer, but I am sure now it's not something that I want to do from the bottom of my heart, but I guess I'll start off as an engineer. It's the only thing I can do now. I have no other choice. I have to be realistic. I need to pay my loan first.

How is life? Life's been good. Today I am much relieved after knowing that all my works are well-appreciated. My FYP is good. Job hunting? Still crossing my fingers, but I believe that everything is in (His) control.

:)

I am contented.

How long since the last time I wrote here? 3 months. And how long since the last time I really did update something? A long time ago.

Suddenly, I feel the urge to write again. Well, not that 'suddenly". It's because I have been thinking what actually am I really good at? Can I do it for a living, someday? I come to an answer telling me that I want to be a painter and a writer. It's true that I'll have my degree as an engineer, but I am sure now it's not something that I want to do from the bottom of my heart, but I guess I'll start off as an engineer. It's the only thing I can do now. I have no other choice. I have to be realistic. I need to pay my loan first.

How is life? Life's been good. Today I am much relieved after knowing that all my works are well-appreciated. My FYP is good. Job hunting? Still crossing my fingers, but I believe that everything is in (His) control.

:)

still alive.

Hello, long time no see!

Many things have happened but I'm not gonna update about anything.

One thing for sure is that..

True, you cannot depend on anyone.

That I only have Mom, Dad, and Bro.

nearly the end.

this is my last week of internship.

you can see at the left of my current wishlists and goals : a fruitful journey during internship.

yes, a very 'fruitful' one indeed.

I've learnt that :

1. Routine makes me sick.

2. I'm not good at dealing with details. definitely not a detail-oriented person. does that mean i am not suitable to become an engineer?

3. I love to think but I don't like thinking and analyzing technical stuffs. I'm more to that abstract thinker.

4. My patience limit has expanded. a lot, maybe.

5. Sometimes you have to fight for your own good sake, even to people who have somewhat called higher positions. If not, think again.. are you sure you wanna be their slaves?

6. I made some improvement in my defending skills.

7. Don't act like a boss even if you are one, act as a leader instead. Never let your people lose their respect towards you.

8. Always keep a good manner and attitude while eating with a group of people!!!

9. If you don't have passion within you, it's really... hard to enjoy what you're doing. 'Love what you do' is too good to be true.

10. I need something more than incentives, I think.. I need a reason... and passion.

11. I'm a slacker.

12. I'm more stubborn than I ever thought I was.

13. And surprisingly, I'm more patient than I ever thought I was.

14. Nothing beats university life as a normal university student.

15. You can't just depend on anyone at anytime.

16. I only have Mom, Dad, and Bro.

17. Mom and Dad are the ones who always stand by you. no matter what. they'll never leave you. they'll do as best as they could, even sometimes too much :)

And the list still goes on. I'd add if time and condition permits :p

You might be wondering why almost all the lists are the negative ones.. yes, seriously I cannot think about much of the good things at the moment. This semester is the 'BEST' semester ever. I thought last was epic enough but this time is even more. More tears are shed. Joys are more appreciated. More stories are shared. More people are involved. More feeling plays part, where love and hate becomes one. When you have thousand reasons to hate, but there is one very reason which hold you to stay.

Sorry, I didn't mean to..

I really meant the opposite way.

I know it was such an irony, but I couldn't just act like I.... just care.

I'm... sorry. I didn't mean to.

A Wish Upon A Star

I've never seen a rainbow...

...with my own eyes...

....and I hope when I do, it will be with someone special.

One Chance

One chance which is given to me

One chance which leads me to the decision that I decide to stay

If only another chance comes instead, I would have been given up

One chance which gives me pain and disappointment

One chance which shows me the truth and lies

If only another chance comes instead, my life would have been gone smoothly

One chance which I decided to take

I just hope it's all worth it

A Paradox

My b**s not in today! Woohoooooo I could feel my face smiling! :D

One paradox is that I'm more into doing the works I've assigned when the b**s is not around lol. I finished it in a more efficient way. Fast and quick! I know this is not really right.. I should have shown this so-called-'passion and spirit' when the b**s is around, so I can give good impression and hence... get a good grade, but I just can't lift up my spirit. Maybe because I had already been mentally tired and somehow there's still a pressure. Maybe because I like freedom. I already know no one's gonna scold me today and hence I do my work happily and surprisingly, more efficiently! :D

Another random (evil) thing...

It's so good having no exams at all for the semester, yeay! I just realized it from yesterday's Exam Rosary that I didn't feel as worried as previous semesters before we started the prayer. The fact is.. It is the Exam Rosary itself that helps to carry the burdens and worries away :) Well, I just miss it but somehow enjoy it. One exam-less semester in NTU is a priceless pleasure :) Hahaha... Forgive me being evil, my dear friends who are having exams, I didn't mean anything to hurt you. I just mean to satisfy my self! :P

Another random (evil-less) thing..

I'm glad that one of my colleague did help me explain things I didn't understand. Well, even though the answer was didn't really satisfy me, I was touched by his eagerness to help and didn't leave the questions unanswered! :)

That's all for now..

Oh yeah I got one random (hedonist) thought that's occurring to me..

I think since I bought the iPhone, my mood has been swinging in the good place. Never been better since the last few months! LOL. That's the power of money. They can buy you physical things and give you (guilty) pleasure as well. I'm not being materialistic, I'm just being realistic :P

iPhone, wait for me!!!

OMG, what am I thinking!

I decided to buy an iPhone in just 3 days time.

For my dear friends,

next time I meet you, don't be surprised if suddenly I say "I'm flying to Paris." haha just random, though.

April, Thanks for being.... quite nice.

It's always amazing to think that how fast time can fly if you look back.

Today is already the end of April!

Well, compare to March, I shall say you have done far better :) even though I still had to fall some times here and there..

At least, there are some memories that are worth to be remembered with a smile..